Friday, July 31, 2009


Usually on Fridays I wake up with a bounce in my step, but then I realize with the weekend comes increased instances of eating out and unpredictable schedules. As a result, I am terrified of my days off.

I am convinced that I successfully lose weight during the weekdays (as shown on my scale) and then I immediately gain it back. I need to learn how to conquer this fear and these situations. Otherwise, I will never maintain success.

So, I turn to the world. How do you get through the weekends without sabatoging your success? Can you still be social and successful? Any ideas or tips?

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Being Present

I had my monthy meeting with the nutritionist today. I wasn't too excited considering that the past three weeks have been a complete mess. Between being prohibited from exercising for 2+ weeks, a business trip chock full of cocktail parties and gigantic pile of work that won't go away, I gave into a "what the hell?" frame of thinking. I knew that I shouldn't have eaten an entire carton of ice cream (several nights in a row), but - hey, "what the hell?" Luckily, I only gained half a pound from these antics, but the harder part was facing my nutritionist and confessing to my willing attitude to fail.

So, how do I move forward and refocus? I need to de-stress, but not by changing the circumstances in my life. Rather, I will work on being present. I must remember that the past is the past and the future has not happened. I can only control this moment and in every decision I make, I must ask does this decision help me live the health values that I want in my life?

I like this strategy and I think it makes sense, but what if I decide "no it doesn't and I don't care"? Then, my nutritionist says I make a conscious decision to eat what I want to eat without becoming victim to the food. Have a portion that I want and throw out the rest, don't keep the carton around for me to dig my fork into all night. Eat a reasonable amount and get rid of the rest - easy enough.

So, this is my commitment to refocus and be in the moment. I am sure more issues will arrive over the next few weeks, but at least I am working on it. And, I am not working only on what I eat but WHY I eat.

Wish me luck!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Outing Myself

I just came back from the BlogHer '09 on behalf of my company, which shall remain nameless, where I was inspired by the thousands of women who share their lives and journey's online through their blogs. After a few conversations with some inspiring women, I've decided a few things:
  1. I need to out myself and not remain anonymous.
  2. I need to make a commitment to post once in a while.
  3. I need to celebrate others who write about the same things that I care about.
So, let's start with #1...

Hi, My name is Lea and I live in California. I started this blog back in April and then for many reasons, or rather excuses, I quickly ignored this effort. However, I hope to share with you my daily struggles, triumphs and challenges in my fight against the bulge. I suspect more of my posts will be about my weaknesses, but maybe this process will lead to a little enlightenment.

Monday, April 20, 2009

National Iced Coffee Day

Oh, donuts. Their fluffy texture and sugary outside always wants me craving more. Luckily, there are no Dunkin' Donuts where I live and most other donut places don't compare in quality. I've never been a Krispie Kreme type of girl, they always leave me wanting more (which is very dangerous).

If you are lucky enough to live near a DD, be sure to pop in tomorrow, April 21 for Iced Coffee Day. Stop by your local U.S. Dunkin' Donuts on and turn 50¢ into refreshment you can feel good about. For each small Iced Coffee you buy on Iced Coffee Day, 10% of the purchase price will go to The Dunkin’ Brands Community Foundation to support Homes for Our Troops. So, stick to your diet tomorrow, and get a coffee instead of a donut. However, if you decide to get add on a donut to your coffee order - do me a favor and have one for me!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Welcome! I am the infinite snacker..

If you're just landing on this blog by accident, you might wonder who am I? Well, the truth is...I'm no one special. I am just the average girl who happens to love food. Having faced a weight issue most of my life, I am a perpetual dieter who is never not on a weight loss journey. So, in my current attempt to set the record straight, I will share with you my new strategies, my constant weaknesses and my ongoing battle with the bulge--because this is war. Maybe one day I will figure out this thing called weight loss! But in the meantime here is a little bit about me in pictures and words...

  • I love anything (and I mean anything) covered in chocolate chips
  • I am obsessed with Spinning--even though it hasn't let to much weight loss
  • Ice cream is my weakness (especially when filled with Oreos)
  • I have a big butt and everything I eat goes straight to my thighs
  • I weigh myself everyday and it determines whether I am having a good day or a bad one
  • I suspect I have a distorted self view
  • My battle with weight makes me want to pull my hair out, or at least kick and scream once and a while
  • I am a professional women who finds it really challenging to juggle social situations while being "good"
Image sources: Cookies from One Whole Clove; Spin Bikes from NY Mag ; Oreos Ice Cream from Best Stuff; Butt image from Sonja Bailes ; Scale from Weight Matters ; Mirror from Geekology; Hair pulling from Julie James Hypnotherapy; Blackberry from Minnesota Public Radio