TGIF?

Usually on Fridays I wake up with a bounce in my step, but then I realize with the weekend comes increased instances of eating out and unpredictable schedules. As a result, I am terrified of my days off.

I am convinced that I successfully lose weight during the weekdays (as shown on my scale) and then I immediately gain it back. I need to learn how to conquer this fear and these situations. Otherwise, I will never maintain success.

So, I turn to the world. How do you get through the weekends without sabatoging your success? Can you still be social and successful? Any ideas or tips?

Being Present

I had my monthy meeting with the nutritionist today. I wasn't too excited considering that the past three weeks have been a complete mess. Between being prohibited from exercising for 2+ weeks, a business trip chock full of cocktail parties and gigantic pile of work that won't go away, I gave into a "what the hell?" frame of thinking. I knew that I shouldn't have eaten an entire carton of ice cream (several nights in a row), but - hey, "what the hell?" Luckily, I only gained half a pound from these antics, but the harder part was facing my nutritionist and confessing to my willing attitude to fail.

So, how do I move forward and refocus? I need to de-stress, but not by changing the circumstances in my life. Rather, I will work on being present. I must remember that the past is the past and the future has not happened. I can only control this moment and in every decision I make, I must ask does this decision help me live the health values that I want in my life?

I like this strategy and I think it makes sense, but what if I decide "no it doesn't and I don't care"? Then, my nutritionist says I make a conscious decision to eat what I want to eat without becoming victim to the food. Have a portion that I want and throw out the rest, don't keep the carton around for me to dig my fork into all night. Eat a reasonable amount and get rid of the rest - easy enough.

So, this is my commitment to refocus and be in the moment. I am sure more issues will arrive over the next few weeks, but at least I am working on it. And, I am not working only on what I eat but WHY I eat.

Wish me luck!

Outing Myself

I just came back from the BlogHer '09 on behalf of my company, which shall remain nameless, where I was inspired by the thousands of women who share their lives and journey's online through their blogs. After a few conversations with some inspiring women, I've decided a few things:

1. I need to out myself and not remain anonymous.
2. I need to make a commitment to post once in a while.
3. I need to celebrate others who write about the same things that I care about.
   

So, let's start with #1...

Hi, My name is Lea and I live in California. I started this blog back in April and then for many reasons, or rather excuses, I quickly ignored this effort. However, I hope to share with you my daily struggles, triumphs and challenges in my fight against the bulge. I suspect more of my posts will be about my weaknesses, but maybe this process will lead to a little enlightenment.